Monday, November 12, 2007

wow.

So, as I was cruising my scrappin' message boards this morning, I found a post from a fellow Kansan who had left some advice for a girl who's FIL is close to death. Her very simple advice to them about being with him and saying goodbye was to wish for all of them:

"the Peace that Passes Understanding."


wow. wow. wow.

WOW.


(light bulbs...here...)


That actually took my breath away and made my heart beat fast.


As you all know, I have struggled for 10 years trying to accept the untimely and what I have always considered unfair death of my mother. You can read my most recent post about this here. Believe me, it's so hard to lose someone that you love so much. If you've been there, then you understand. If you haven't, well I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. But, what I can tell you is....it sucks! Bad. And no matter what anyone ever said to try to make me feel better (although I love all of you for saying it and I appreciate it) I have never really felt at Peace concerning her death. For so long, I was too angry. Now, I just miss her. But, I can't say that I actually feel like I have ever had "Peace" about it.


So, that's what I am hoping for....
The Peace that Passes Understanding.


And just like that. A simple statement to someone else. And all of a sudden it's like my eyes are opened. I read that totally different than I ever had before.


...the Peace that Passes Understanding.

wow.


I'm sure I can't be the only child who remembers singing that little song in Sunday School...

"I have the Peace that Passes Understanding....
Down in my heart.
(where?)
Down in my heart.
(where?)
Down in my heart to stay."


I never really listened to the words.
I didn't understand what they were talking about.
I didn't get it......


....until today.


So, I'll be striving for the Peace that Passes Understanding.....

And I wish you will find it too.

5 comments:

jamietg said...

Fo shizzle. Man do I thank God for that peace...whew!

Tam said...

That was deep. hmm that is all I got to say on this one babe...esp right now

Stacy said...

Peace that Passes Understanding........hmmm, well, Get your boots..errrr,...make that your deep sea divivng outfit on....I'm about to get as deep as I've ever been with you... and that's pretty darn deep. For me, there is Pease that passes understanding when I began to understand who God is, the sovereignty God has over my life, and studying the doctrines of grace. I learned There is no such thing as coinsidence or mere accident just providence. God's hand is in everything that happens... And that goes for the good, the bad, and the horrific things that I never talk about. I find confidence that He's in control, everything happens for a reason, and I don't have to know what that reason it...That's not my job. I know that he never promised he would make a christian life easy (rather he said it would be harder) and that the difficult and even horrific things that happened to me were for a reason...if nothing more than to give streagth to my faith. What kind of testimony would Christians have if life was easy for them? I humbly accept the fact that He is the potter and I'm mere clay...The peace is believing he's in control and can't mess up...even when I or others do. Its truely an amazing grace that He saved me....I don't feel like any sinner's prayer prayed, any good deeds done, anything in my life could have been good enough for God to have shown his mercy and grace upon me. But he has and that's what makes his grace so Amazing...I did nothing to deserve salvation. I think he saved me,...It was not merely me asking to be saved...He took the first step, stirred my heart with the "Peace that passes understanding". (I told you this was deep) I know this is kind of a new twist... isn't it. That's enough for one post!!

Stacy said...

ooops !! I did not just type Pease and not Peace.....I just can't type or spell.

Grandmom said...

Wow! I'm so happy your heart has been touched. I know that saying has been in my heart for a very long time. I miss my Dad also and always felt why did he have to leave so soon!
"Peace that Passes Understanding" are very strong words, I'll say a prayer for you.

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