wow.

So, as I was cruising my scrappin' message boards this morning, I found a post from a fellow Kansan who had left some advice for a girl who's FIL is close to death. Her very simple advice to them about being with him and saying goodbye was to wish for all of them:

"the Peace that Passes Understanding."


wow. wow. wow.

WOW.


(light bulbs...here...)


That actually took my breath away and made my heart beat fast.


As you all know, I have struggled for 10 years trying to accept the untimely and what I have always considered unfair death of my mother. You can read my most recent post about this here. Believe me, it's so hard to lose someone that you love so much. If you've been there, then you understand. If you haven't, well I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. But, what I can tell you is....it sucks! Bad. And no matter what anyone ever said to try to make me feel better (although I love all of you for saying it and I appreciate it) I have never really felt at Peace concerning her death. For so long, I was too angry. Now, I just miss her. But, I can't say that I actually feel like I have ever had "Peace" about it.


So, that's what I am hoping for....
The Peace that Passes Understanding.


And just like that. A simple statement to someone else. And all of a sudden it's like my eyes are opened. I read that totally different than I ever had before.


...the Peace that Passes Understanding.

wow.


I'm sure I can't be the only child who remembers singing that little song in Sunday School...

"I have the Peace that Passes Understanding....
Down in my heart.
(where?)
Down in my heart.
(where?)
Down in my heart to stay."


I never really listened to the words.
I didn't understand what they were talking about.
I didn't get it......


....until today.


So, I'll be striving for the Peace that Passes Understanding.....

And I wish you will find it too.